Can I Be Real With You?
I get scared sometimes.
You know what’s scary to me?
Realizing that the thing I spent a decade of my life pursuing may not be the thing I’m meant to spend my life pursing or doing, and subsequently feeling like I’m starting from scratch (in a way).
I’ve been talking about change for so long now that it seems as though that’s what I’m about (actually, I guess it kinda is… but I digress). This “life transition” has been going on so long (about four years long now) because, to be honest, I haven’t had a lot of clarity as to where I’m transitioning to. Yes, I have still been doing all the things I was doing before (coaching, staying consistent with social media, modeling and other bookings, etc.), but I’m talking about the end game – where you put your mental focus – where your “why” comes in to play.
I’m the sort of person who thrives on having a set goal; a goal you can make quantifiable progress towards. I’ve been that way as long as I can remember, and I’m still that way, but I’ve never had trouble visualizing a clear goal to work towards until lately.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not sitting around, twiddling my thumbs, waiting for a blueprint of my life to fall out of the sky.
(In fact, I just launched a new video series I’ve been working on. This is the second video, but technically it’s the first “episode.” — Check it out and let me know what you think!)
It’s just that typically, I’ll have a goal in mind — reach X-number of followers/viewers by X-time, compete in X-physique contest and qualify for Nationals, sell X-amount of ebooks in X-time period, increase personal training client base to X-number of people by X-time — but each of those goals were in place because my ‘why’ was intact. My M.O. was to help people, especially women, experience the life-changing benefits and positive transformation of science and evidence-based strength training, fitness/nutrition education, and application (programing). These are good things, and very much still what I’m about in terms of teaching and coaching fitness, but I was coming from the mindset that “Fitness” was the driving force, the reason, the answer…the savior.
Fitness is not the answer. Fitness is simply an outlet, and it can be a very healthy outlet, especially with the proper education, but it’s not the answer to all of life’s questions. I had been acting for a long time as if it were, and that is what changed.
I’m not saying I don’t love fitness (I do, very much). All I am saying is that I gave fitness too much credit, and when I realized that truth, it changed everything. I had to ask myself why I was such an evangelist for fitness when there’s so much about it’s industry that I simply cannot stand behind. It’s the disillusionment of it all that put me in this fog.
In this fog, I’ve been doing what I know I can keep doing (writing my book, making videos, creating content), but I haven’t been able to see what’s next. If someone asks me what it is that I do exactly, my answer may seem more than a little vague.
All you need to keep moving forward is faith and a “why”.
Ever been led around by the hand while wearing a blindfold over your eyes, having to trust that they’re leading you somewhere awesome?
Yea, that’s about right where I am, and it’s God who’s leading me though it.
I don’t know what the future holds, and neither do you, but I do know we can trust God because He’s promised He will never leave us, He’s always good, and He’s promised to prosper us, not to harm us, to give us a hope and a future. Why would He do that? Because it’s who He is. He is constant, He never changes; He loves us; and He’s about His glory. And it would completely go against what He’s about and who He is to do anything other than what He’s promised.
And I DO know God has brought me to this fog for a reason — and that reason may just be to trust Him with each day rather than try to figure everything out ahead of time.
I know my mission, and I know my ‘why’. My M.O. is still to help you experience the life-changing benefits and positive transformation of science and evidence-based strength training, fitness/nutrition education, and application. But, even more so, I am here to teach you how to Cause Fitness in every area of your life, and lead by example. Because there are much greater and better things than fitting into Size 2 Lululemon crops or vanquishing every ounce of cellulite. And there’s always a why behind your why when you answer the question: “why do workout?”
I’m doing this because I truly care about you; because I know that there are times that you question yourself and your purpose and your value, and there have been times that you’ve believed that getting physically fitter or healthier would solve all your problems, whether you admitted it or not.
And I know this because I can relate to all of the above.
So, while trusting God to lead me through the fog, I’m doing what I know, because I believe in my cause and my cause, my reason, is YOU.
If you need more proof, here’s last week’s video – inspired by YOU. (Thank you!)
YOUR TURN: In the comments below, let’s talk! Have you believed fitness (or something else) was the answer to everything in the past? What caused you to believe that and what made you realize it wasn’t?